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i havent written anything in a long time. sorry! I've been so busy with work and crazy stuff. but tonight i went to see one of my favortie movies now. UP ♥!it was just so heartfelt and its that kind of movie where there aren't butterflies just in your stomach but all the way down to the tips of your toes. Its one of those movies that I'd buy. Me and Matthew promised we'd make out mail box just like their's :). But its almost that 70's show time.

cross my heart -Daisyana:)

shore

going tomorrow with the love of my life ♥

<3

micheal and jackie are in one of there fights
jackie wants michael to kiss a girl of her choice
to make up for what they've done to eachother

michael: how about her?
jackie: no! shes to tan skinny and rich
michael: well damn jackie! i dont want to kiss a pale fat poor girl
jackie: i give up, kiss whoever you want
(michael kisses jackie)
michael: i choose you

this is why i love this show <3


P.S. IM LIVID. they discontinued the polaroid film. everytime i get inspiration to do something, somethings always wrong.

someday

"someday you'll understand that everything is a-ok" great song lyrics. i've been wanting to listen to motion city so badly and i got the whole discography and its amazinggg. idk im feeling this song right now. i feel like everytime im satisfied with something, someone changes it on me. whatever.

peace&love- Daisy :)

cheer up sleepy Jean

so i was thinking today. WTF! the decade is almost over and what have we accomplished but overwhelming anarchy. everything has gone to shit and its get shittier by the day.

• 60's- the era of peace, love, and happiness. lets all just fuck eachother and feel the love. love is free, don't listen to the man.
• 70's- lets get a little rock in this bitch. still the era of love but more about the music. more about lets get high.
• 80's- GLAM ROCK! lets get really teased hair, skin tight pants, and makeup.
• 90's- get hood with it. absolute hoorat status with bandanas and all.
• 2000's- ???

i feel like this whole decade has been a flashback of the good times, and i feel like i've been cheated out of living in those good times. but at least i've experienced them all .

something to think about :)

peace&love -Daisy ♥

:(

i can never please everyone. by trying i have nothing in return.

header

i feel like i should explain the header i have cause its important to me. i mean that picture att he very top of this page and im probably going to change it once i find or make something better and then this entry will be obsolete and whatever.

1. The first thing is a sunflower. i fuckiing love sunflowers. to me there just the epitome of happiness, there color is the color of sunshine and there just so big and whenever i see them i just want to run through a field of them and just be surrounded by somethingso beautiful.
2. The second is sushi ♥ im a pescaterian. i used to be a vegetarian for quite a while but i joined the army and had to desperately gain weight to be allowed in. i just said to hell with it. i eventually with become one again but for right now i need to do this. so ive become a pescatarian. basically a vegeterian diet plus fish.
3. The third is arizona green tea. the cans of arizona iced tea keep me going. i freakin LOVE THEM. idk what it is about them but im enfatuated about them. especially the half green tea half lemonade ones. soo gooood.
4. Fourth is the beatles. whenever i listen to the beatles they make me feel like i want to feel. just a free soul. can do whatever i want and just be happy. thats how i want to live my life. just live to be happy and not care what anyone else thinks.
5. volkswagon vans just remind me of that 70's show which is my favorite. i would have liked to have been my age in the 70's. i think thats where my mindset is.
6. wayferrers baby. im really into fashion although you probably cant tell. i just like ot dress how i like and these are a favorite accessory right now.

peace&love - Daisy :)

May :)

the first of the month! rabbit rabbit. i wish it felt more like may though. it was absolutely fucking sweltering out last week and this week its been a bit chilly. global warming is at its worst and no ones doing anything about it. and if they are, well we are moving to slow. im so pissed im not going to bamboozle. i just wanted to see no doubt and never shout never. :( FML. im really starting to hate my job. i just hate being fake and when im real with people my bosses have something to say about it. im a regularly sweet person but they want me to convince my customers to spend more money than they have to and im not about that. im about saving people money cause thats what id want someone to do for me. im listening to a mix i made for my good friend courtey. we were talking about it yesterday how we love hxc remakes of rap songs and i have a good collection and it pumps me up so good. i really dont know why i write my actual thoughts here cause no ones going to read it but i think thats what i want. i just need somewhere to hide my real emotions. i got to go get ready for my job -_- today eats a big one. for real

peace&love -Daisy ♥

funny

its funny how things pan out. plans can be changed in a milisecond over nothing. i really wish i wasn't so childish and took everything to heart. and the thing is im not with most people, just with the people that are really close to me and i can't stand to lose, and it really should be the opposite. idk man im a lost soul. im not looking foward to tomorrow at all. as if today wasnt a shitshow of a day already, walking around and not seeing my boyfriend on my only full day off was FUCKING AWESOME. but tomorrow i have an event at my beauty bitch job where i have to act fact to people and lie to them to buy a product. they pulled me aside one day and actually told me nicely that i needed to have "a better appearance" at work cause i needed to give off the persona of being beautiful and know everything about beauty. FUCK OFF. im beautiful all the time negro. hes not black. but i have that until 5 then have to put random crap away for 2 hours then go to some bikini contest with my boyfriend whos going to be drooling over other girls. i told him i didnt care if he went but i was not going. why would he even ask me to fucking go to something like that. go with one of your dudes holy fuck. then i have a dressy thing to go to on saturday which is going to be BANGIN. im cap locking a lot of shit in this cause i can. i hate when people dont answer my texts and i know there not doing anything. its like a slap in the face. i really should be cleaning my room or doing something productive or along those lines but im here writing this random ass entry. blah blah blah. i got my vegeterian kit from peta today! even though someone told me petas a joke i dont believe it.i cant wait to live on my own so i can go food shopping and but everything organic and animal friendly. milk and eggs are actually bad for you. your not supposed to drink another species milk btdubs. the daily show with Jon Stewart is so fucking funny but informative at the same time. i love it. Stephen Colbert a lot better though. mmmm. i bought these organic bars tonight and they are absolutely fucking delicious. RANDOMNESS. im going to finish my hair so i look "presentable" for work tomorrow. the price of being a beauty bitch.

peace&love - Daisyana :)

The Beatles ♥

They always make me feel like I want to, free as a bird. That song is the epitamy of what i want to be. i don't want to be held down with worries of anything. i just want to live my life day to day with no worries except where i can get the best best fruit or sushi. i've noticed a lot of grocery stores are investing in an organic section which is fucking epic in my eyes. the stop and shop in wycoff built an eco-friendly version of itself maybe 3 feet away from the old store and opened up recently. it just seriously confused me when they said that they were knocking down the old one to make a bigger parking lot. WTF? why knock down a perfectly good store? why are you wasting precious resources you crazy assholes. that reminds me that i want crazy good pinkberry yogurt with granola.

Here are a list of missions that need to be completed by the end of may:

1. go to green meadows farm to see the cute baby animals
2. get tanner than i already am
3. get a super cute itsby bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini, literally
4. go to the city and get pinkberry <3
5. go on a hike and take pictures of amazingly beautiful nature
6. pay all my dues and get caught up on my bills
7. be the best person i can be :)

fuck

i always do this. i make the biggest possible deal about something so stupid only because i feel fucked. my boyfriend has been telling me we would hang out for the last couple of days so i turned down plans with one of my good friends because i thought i already had plans. then he invites me to this dinner with a couple of his co-workers. i've been to one of these dinners before and it didn't rub me the right way. no one made an effort to talk to me and i'm a very shy person unless spoken to. i felt like i was being ignored and wasn't wanted. i was just there because i was the girlfriend. so i'm caught in a rough spot. i want to hang out with him but i don't want to be strung along to another fucking dinner where i would sit there silently for three hours wasting my time, but i also don't want to just not see him. i'll be miserable either way. my good friend already made plans so there is no use in trying to hang out with her again, i mean i could always call my dude but he always wants to party and i'm not into that. i just got really bitchy because i hate when this happens and a whole mess of shit added to it. bitches not knowing me but think its alright to put my name in their mouths when they should just shove another bean burrito in there to keep the many others company. The worst part is matt didn't think twoce about it. well she said she was sorry. i don't give a flying fuck. i don't know her, she doesn't know me, i didnt get an apology you did. i've never met this girl in my life yet she thinks its okay to slander my name. jealousy is an ugly side of a person, and AT LEAST I GET PAID BITCH! but i hate when i get in bad moods and speak to my boyfriend in a bitchy way. he only ever tries to make me happy but sometimes he just doesn't get my point of view which makes me livid instead of just upset. i do place the blame on other people but i expect certain people to know me enough to know what to and not to do. couples fight though, its getting through them that makes relationships stronger. one things for sure, i don't take anything hes ever done for me for granted. :)

feeling

feeling like a million bucks. listening to oldies, being in the blissful wisps of love, and being free as a bird. i love the feeling. i wish money wasnt such a burden. i feel like everywhere i turn theres something i have to pay for. money controls peoples lives and i wish we could do away with it. the best things in life are free, so why cant we live off of them? if one doesn't make enough money we get ridiculed but shouldnt the people making the big bucks be the ones to laugh at? they're the ones that waste their whole lives trying to climb corporate ladders, never stopping just to appreciate life. They're the ones that get to the age of 50 and have a mid life crisis because they didnt focus on there happiness in earlier years. That's not the life I want to live. i want to live a fulfilling life. A life that when I'm lying in my death bed I can look back on and honestly say "I lived my life to the fullest and i loved it". back to the stones. Random thoughts for the day :)