funny

its funny how things pan out. plans can be changed in a milisecond over nothing. i really wish i wasn't so childish and took everything to heart. and the thing is im not with most people, just with the people that are really close to me and i can't stand to lose, and it really should be the opposite. idk man im a lost soul. im not looking foward to tomorrow at all. as if today wasnt a shitshow of a day already, walking around and not seeing my boyfriend on my only full day off was FUCKING AWESOME. but tomorrow i have an event at my beauty bitch job where i have to act fact to people and lie to them to buy a product. they pulled me aside one day and actually told me nicely that i needed to have "a better appearance" at work cause i needed to give off the persona of being beautiful and know everything about beauty. FUCK OFF. im beautiful all the time negro. hes not black. but i have that until 5 then have to put random crap away for 2 hours then go to some bikini contest with my boyfriend whos going to be drooling over other girls. i told him i didnt care if he went but i was not going. why would he even ask me to fucking go to something like that. go with one of your dudes holy fuck. then i have a dressy thing to go to on saturday which is going to be BANGIN. im cap locking a lot of shit in this cause i can. i hate when people dont answer my texts and i know there not doing anything. its like a slap in the face. i really should be cleaning my room or doing something productive or along those lines but im here writing this random ass entry. blah blah blah. i got my vegeterian kit from peta today! even though someone told me petas a joke i dont believe it.i cant wait to live on my own so i can go food shopping and but everything organic and animal friendly. milk and eggs are actually bad for you. your not supposed to drink another species milk btdubs. the daily show with Jon Stewart is so fucking funny but informative at the same time. i love it. Stephen Colbert a lot better though. mmmm. i bought these organic bars tonight and they are absolutely fucking delicious. RANDOMNESS. im going to finish my hair so i look "presentable" for work tomorrow. the price of being a beauty bitch.

peace&love - Daisyana :)

The Beatles ♥

They always make me feel like I want to, free as a bird. That song is the epitamy of what i want to be. i don't want to be held down with worries of anything. i just want to live my life day to day with no worries except where i can get the best best fruit or sushi. i've noticed a lot of grocery stores are investing in an organic section which is fucking epic in my eyes. the stop and shop in wycoff built an eco-friendly version of itself maybe 3 feet away from the old store and opened up recently. it just seriously confused me when they said that they were knocking down the old one to make a bigger parking lot. WTF? why knock down a perfectly good store? why are you wasting precious resources you crazy assholes. that reminds me that i want crazy good pinkberry yogurt with granola.

Here are a list of missions that need to be completed by the end of may:

1. go to green meadows farm to see the cute baby animals
2. get tanner than i already am
3. get a super cute itsby bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini, literally
4. go to the city and get pinkberry <3
5. go on a hike and take pictures of amazingly beautiful nature
6. pay all my dues and get caught up on my bills
7. be the best person i can be :)

fuck

i always do this. i make the biggest possible deal about something so stupid only because i feel fucked. my boyfriend has been telling me we would hang out for the last couple of days so i turned down plans with one of my good friends because i thought i already had plans. then he invites me to this dinner with a couple of his co-workers. i've been to one of these dinners before and it didn't rub me the right way. no one made an effort to talk to me and i'm a very shy person unless spoken to. i felt like i was being ignored and wasn't wanted. i was just there because i was the girlfriend. so i'm caught in a rough spot. i want to hang out with him but i don't want to be strung along to another fucking dinner where i would sit there silently for three hours wasting my time, but i also don't want to just not see him. i'll be miserable either way. my good friend already made plans so there is no use in trying to hang out with her again, i mean i could always call my dude but he always wants to party and i'm not into that. i just got really bitchy because i hate when this happens and a whole mess of shit added to it. bitches not knowing me but think its alright to put my name in their mouths when they should just shove another bean burrito in there to keep the many others company. The worst part is matt didn't think twoce about it. well she said she was sorry. i don't give a flying fuck. i don't know her, she doesn't know me, i didnt get an apology you did. i've never met this girl in my life yet she thinks its okay to slander my name. jealousy is an ugly side of a person, and AT LEAST I GET PAID BITCH! but i hate when i get in bad moods and speak to my boyfriend in a bitchy way. he only ever tries to make me happy but sometimes he just doesn't get my point of view which makes me livid instead of just upset. i do place the blame on other people but i expect certain people to know me enough to know what to and not to do. couples fight though, its getting through them that makes relationships stronger. one things for sure, i don't take anything hes ever done for me for granted. :)

feeling

feeling like a million bucks. listening to oldies, being in the blissful wisps of love, and being free as a bird. i love the feeling. i wish money wasnt such a burden. i feel like everywhere i turn theres something i have to pay for. money controls peoples lives and i wish we could do away with it. the best things in life are free, so why cant we live off of them? if one doesn't make enough money we get ridiculed but shouldnt the people making the big bucks be the ones to laugh at? they're the ones that waste their whole lives trying to climb corporate ladders, never stopping just to appreciate life. They're the ones that get to the age of 50 and have a mid life crisis because they didnt focus on there happiness in earlier years. That's not the life I want to live. i want to live a fulfilling life. A life that when I'm lying in my death bed I can look back on and honestly say "I lived my life to the fullest and i loved it". back to the stones. Random thoughts for the day :)